I hate the way life turns out sometimes, I hate growing apart from someone, I hate how people change, I hate moving on, I hate letting go, I hate hurting, I hate wanting love so much, I hate how you never have a “true best friend” because one day they’ll grow apart from you, I hate the here and now, i hate the world and all it has to offer, I hate wanting more than I have, I hate loneliness, I hate losing the ones you love, I hate missing someone when you don’t want too, i hate missing someone who doesn’t miss you, I hate feeling pathetic or depressed, i hate not being able to “feel” anymore, i hate being lead on or used by someone you really like, i hate being forgotten, i hate being replaced by someone, i hate when people get divorced, i hate how people misuse the word “love”, i hate wanting something so much but i cant seem to just reach out and grab it and I hate when life throws you hardball’s and your unable to catch them, but most of all i hate it when so many negative things make you become a bitter person and they start to change who you are all along. HATE, is a strong word just like LOVE, and hate for some reason is all i feel anymore.
This Weekend was pretty good, ESPECIALLY the corn maze.
I hate how people change. I know its a part of life and it’s simply something we cannot control but it hurts to see someone close to you change. I try and always live my life to the fullest without ever changing on one of my close friends or family. I’m not perfect but i try my best to stay true to who i am and NEVER result in any kind of change. The change, specifically with someone saying all these meaningful things, acting a certain way around you, telling you everything etc. then to one day becoming the opposite of all of those things, resulting in them changing and not being the person that they used to be around you. It is unfortunate that sometimes people don’t even see that they have changed and keep on living there lives obliviously to this change that has taken place in their lives. I hope that one can realize the change that is happening and that they can somehow prevent it from continuing. The world would be a better place if a person always stayed true to who they were and never put on faces around different people or changed towards you personally. Changes are not hard to notice because sometimes they can happen abruptly. In conclusion, i hope that less and less people change on their loved ones as life passes on.
Had a good day.
Wore my awesome James Dean Shirt.
Met Logan at Panera Bread & got to hang out with her a little. :]
Funny Fact: We had a creepishly old man watch us taking pictures inside until he asked us if me dylan and her wanted our picture taken, haha.
Then i went over to Sandy & Mary’s to have an awesome chill/hilarious night with them.
Now I’m at home, did some studying read some of my new book “Safehaven”
Now ending the night with an episode of True Blood. :p
Talk about an addicting show.
Saw an AWESOME movie tonight, EASY A!
Emma Stone was AMAZING!
Definitely up there in my favorite movies!
Movie i CANT wait until next is Love & Other Drugs! My other favorite Actor Jake Gyllenhaal is in it, right alongside the BEAUTIFUL Anne Hathaway.
Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. Specifically because i met my favorite author Nicholas Sparks. I drove down to charlotte N.C with my friend Merranda and we met him and got an autograph after waiting 5 hours, but it was well worth the wait. It made me so happy because i look up to him and his books have changed my life for the better. They re so powerful and REAL, and those are the kinda things i need to be reading in my life and he really speaks of TRUE LOVE in his stories which is something i value very much. He gives people without a significant other HOPE for someone in their life in the future and that they will one day find true love. Everything about his books have helped me become a better person each day that goes by. I will never forget this day for as long as i live. I am so thankful to him for his time and being able to meet him and shake hands with him, it was truly an honor. :)
Me, Mr. Sparks, & Merranda!
“It aint about how hard you can hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward”
When times are tough I ask myself am I strong enough for this? Sometimes I feel like I’m not, yet I look to God and keep telling myself over and over again that he will never leave or forsake me and will not EVER put anything on me that I absolutely cannot handle, in conclusion I just have to keep living by faith and know that just because nothing good is happening now, doesn’t mean God isn’t in the process of making things better, it’s just all in his time.
This is the music video by one of my favorite christian artist Matthew West, and i dedicate the song and video to my deceased cousin Harley, My uncle Ray, and my amazing Great Grandmother. I miss them all very very much.
Save a place for me….
No matter what happens in this life, I hope you have a great one and its filled with nothing but happiness, I hope everything goes great and that you live by faith, but my one wish no matter what is that you save a place for me right next to you in heaven because I wanna be right there with you knowing that we both shared a beautiful, and spiritual relationship, and if nothing else we believed in God, and followed our lives according to what he thinks and did everything he wanted us to do. And if I end up alone I will never regret it because I know I lived my life for God, loving you along the way, inside and out, no regrets.